when i said i love you i was so nervous and scared, i held back a few times but i knew i had to tell him sooner then later. now, i knew with me being his first girlfriend he would not know what to say and well he said it might take sometime babe, but you mean a lot too me. he is everything to me, and i do have a life other then him. now when he doesn't invite me out to friends places on evenings out i get upset, i don't wanna go to every event but i wanna know i'm invited. he hold back on the drinking nights clamming girls are not invited out, facebook status and mobile uploads say other wise. how did i deal with it i think i fucked up. i flopped pretty much. i mean i told him i wanted more and he obvys wanted less. he being that guy, wanted to text talk. i wanted to lay in bed cry and sleep. i had my differences and went to class next morning knowing he would pop into my timetable somehow. he did, i was leaving campus for my 5hour break, and he pulled up and offered me a ride, for real had to smarten up and be his girlfriend, i mean why stop now we were still dating. he was gentleman took me for breakfast and then to his house like we always do to watch our show on pvr ... i had to watch a bit on tv and then clicked it off and started talking, he stopped me half way threw and said "i love you"
when a boy/guy says i love you, your heat droops and mine did. i wanted to cry but didn't. i mean i didn't want him to say i love you wanted the problem fixed. and thats what happened. problems solved and all is a go. now boys don't know how to handle everything but they sometimes know what to say, and how to hold you. so when you find that one, please save yourself and hold on to him for a while. i thought id never be in a relationship but this boy has got me twisted.
so let me ask, love or lust ? ...
-xoxo
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